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“Requiem” Lyrics

“Requiem” Plastic Chair Single (2005)

You know
I can’t even remember
Your number anymore
And sometimes your name eludes me
But your face still stays
Your voice rings in silent ears
Though the feelings have fled
So empty now…
I suppose it always was

He teases me
Making empty offers
He holds out a silver goblet
I reach out to take it
He turns it upside down,
Shrieking, “There’s nothing in it!”

Next, he proffers a delicate box
I turn to accept it
Yet, once again, it is empty
His eyes light with amusement

Then a gilt edged book
Is held out for my inspection
The pages inside are all blank
He squeals with delight

His talk, mysterious phrases
I ponder over each word
He screams, “They mean nothing!”
A peal of capricious laughter
Sounds against the barren walls
He torments me

— by Anji Bee (BMI)

Note: Chukimai took 2 of my old spoken word recordings of poems from the early to mid 90’s and combined them for this post-Plastic Chair song. The original poems were called “Dear John” and “Knight of Cups.”

“Heartstrings” Lyrics

“Heartstrings” Beauty’s Confusion Single (2004)

I feel him tug my heartstrings
His fingers pluck the melodies
Part of the cosmic fugue now
Melding into everything

Turn away our daily cares and
Let the music soothe our souls
And the notes that he’s playing
Combine with mine to make us whole

Music is magic
I feel it moving me
Music has the power
To set our souls free

In the quiet of the night
All alone in our room
While the world is fast asleep now
He and I compose this tune

Music is magic
I feel it moving me
Music has the power
To set our souls free

— by Anji Bee (BMI)

Note: This song was never fully completed. A shortened edit was used as the theme song for my short-lived Lovely Ladies podcast and a remix was begun by DJ Pain with additional spoken word by El Guante. The lyrics for that version are below:

His fingers pluck the melodies
Melding into everything

(x2)

I feel him tug my heartstrings
His fingers pluck the melodies
Part of the cosmic fugue now
Melding into everything

Turn away our daily cares and
Let the music soothe our souls
And the notes that he’s playing
Combine with mine to make us whole

Music is magic
I feel it moving me
Music has the power
To set our souls free (free)

In the quiet of the night
All alone in our room
While the world is fast asleep now
He and I compose this tune

Music is magic
I feel it moving me
Music has the power
To set our souls free

— El Guante freestyles —

Music is magic
I feel it moving me
Music has the power
To set our souls free

“Phantasma” Lyrics

“Phantasma” Bitstream Dream Integration (2004)

All the world is wonderful
Filled with people beautiful
So many things to see and do
So many dreams to make come true

Still, there’s one thing to understand
Its all illusion through and through
Reality like grains of sand
Slipping quickly through our hands

It’s a sleight of hand
Conjuror’s trick
A puff of smoke and it’s gone
Don’t you get caught up this parlor trick
When all is said and done, you’ve been fooled

— by Anji Bee (BMI)

“Love Me Leave Me” Lyrics

“Love Me Leave Me”  Love Me Leave Me Remixes (2013), Love Me Leave Me LP (2013)

Love me, leave me

Devour me, deceive me
Is that the way that this is going to be
Between you and me

You say you want me, I’m sure that’s true
But how long will it be until you’re through
There’s something I don’t trust in your eyes
You speak to me with sugar coated lies

Love me, leave me
Devour me, deceive me
I know you’ll leave me alone
Love me, leave me
Devour me, deceive me
I know you’ll leave me alone

Ooh ooh ooh…

(repeat all)

— by Anji Bee (BMI)

Note: These lyrics were originally written in mid-2003 for a collaboration with a band called Realm that never panned out. The vocal files from that demo recording session were sent over to Rom di Prisco, who created a version of this song for the 2004 Bitstream Dream album, ‘Integration,’ which is no longer available. A brand new version was produced in 2013 by Anji and Ryan Lum (of Lovespirals) for my debut solo album released in late 2013. An 11 song remix single was also released in 2013, including the 2004 mix by Bitstream Dream plus all new mixes created from the new recording.

“I Carry You” Lyrics

“I Carry You” Plastic Chair Single (2003)

I feel the whole world moving through me
Entire populations stirring within me
I feel their lives, their deaths, filling me
I want to embrace them with my body
To mother and encase, to heal with my flesh
I am the embodiment of goodness
I shall touch the ill and make them whole
I am expanding out of all proportion
Rivers course through me, tears and blood
And emotions more dense than earth
I am inescapably pulled by the mighty tide
And pull again in turn with my gravitational field

— I carry you —

I feel the whole world moving through me
Entire populations stirring within me
I feel their lives, their deaths, filling me
I want to embrace them with my body
To mother and encase, to heal with my flesh
I am the embodiment of goodness
I shall touch the ill and make them whole
I am expanding out of all proportion
Rivers course through me, tears and blood
And emotions more dense than earth
I am inescapably pulled by the mighty tide
And pull again in turn with my gravitational field
I am burning with scorching heat at my core
Giving birth with my voice

— by Anji Bee (BMI)

“Dispersion” Lyrics

“Dispersion” by Plastic Chair single (2003)

Watashi no (my)
Aware na (poor)
Kokoro ga (heart)
Itandeiru (is aching)

My days are timeless
Never ending
Too brief for words
Time swirls ’round my feet
Whisking me ahead
Marching me back
Leaving me in limbo
I float

– By Anji Bee (BMI)

Note: Japanese translation by Chukimai, the musical half of Plastic Chair.

“Good Bye” Lyrics

“Good Bye” Bitstream Dream Single (2001)

Some time ago and far away
I met a boy who could make me smile
We fell in love on that fateful day
And I stayed for a little while
But all dreams must end
And this was no exception
I’d like to think that we’re still friends
That’s just my perception

I had to leave and come back home
So goodbye, Steve
I hope you make it on your own
Good bye, good bye

— by Anji Bee (BMI)


Note: These lyrics were previously written for a collaboration with Moondawg for a side project called Dreamzone 51 we began in February 2000. Below are the original, full lyrics.


Some time ago and far away
(Far away)
I met a boy who could make me smile
(Make me smile)
We fell in love on that fateful day
And I stayed for a little while
But all dreams must end
(They end)
And this was no exception
(They end)
I’d like to think that we’re still friends
That’s just my perception

I had to leave and come back home
(Home)
So goodbye Steve
I hope you make it on your own
(Good bye, good bye, good bye)
I hope you make it on your own
(Good bye, good bye, good bye)

You know I care
(I care)
I always will
(I always will)
Though I’m not there
I hope you sense me still
(Like I do you)
I might not’ve been fair
(Unfair)
To us, my dear
(To us, my dear)
But I just couldn’t shake the fear
(The fear, fear, fear)

I still love you, though I had to go…

My Crazy Convoluted Musical History

After answering Rik’s interview questions, I ended up slimming down my reply to his first question because it was so long. Thought I would go ahead and share it here, though, for anyone who is interested in learning more about my musical timeline.


You divide your time between a few projects, Lovespirals and Delphinium being the most visible.  How does this affect the way you write?

Actually, it’s been a lot more complicated than that! Delphinium really began in the very early 90s as me collaborating with Ravensong (whom I still need to put up on Mp3.com…), until it morphed into a new project called Datura.  Before Datura released anything (aside from a cassette demo), we found out another band was using the same name, so we hunted around for a new one, and came up with Delphinium.  But before Delphinium really took off, Justin and I got sidetracked by another project with some friends of ours, called Ain Soph Aur.  It was an improv experimental band that attempted to combine mystical traditions and music, and we got so caught up with it that Datura/Delphinium was totally forgotten! 

After about a year with Ain Soph Aur, I started jamming with fellow KUCI DJ’s, doing various live and recorded improv sessions, until I ended up collaborating pretty heavily as a duet with home taper, Jake Anderson, called Celesteville.  We were doing lo-fi pop stuff, with both of us switching between a ton of instruments; I played some guitar, accordion, sampler, all kinds of percussion and toys…. it was fun.  I think I needed something light after that ASA experience, and I had needed both improv situations after the heavy studio time with Delphinium.  I like a blend of programmed, carefully crafted music, and spontaneous performance, too much of either is a drag, musically.  That’s what I learned from all that experimentation.

Anji Bee during a live on-air jam session at KUCI 88.9 FM in late 1998

Now, enter Ryan Lum! After all the insanity of live improv and 4-track cassette recording, I was pretty excited to be lucky enough to get involved with a professional recording outfit, such as Love Spirals.  It can be terribly frustrating having your efforts practically thrown away for over a year, which is how I came to feel, looking back on my time with Ain Soph Aur and Celesteville.  I was more than ready to settle down, write some real songs, perfect the vocals and just get really into the recording process.  Unfortunately, Ryan has been overwhelmed by problems with his studio setup most of the time we’ve been together!  His computer died twice, causing him to lose precious data, and he’s had a lot of problems getting his software to work correctly ever since.  We haven’t actually gotten to do much work together yet, even though we’ve been together 2 years.

Meanwhile, I kept writing songs, either tucking the lyrics away in my diary, or recording the vocal melodies to cassette.  Through the Internet, I started meeting various musicians, and collaborated with a few of them. I guess music is kinda like breathing for me, it’s something that I have to do in order to live, you know?  I go nuts if I’m not working on something music related!  It doesn’t always have to be singing, but I was so primed to work with Lovespirals last year, that I had to divert some of that energy somewhere or I was going to crack.  So what happened is that I recorded with 3 different bands over 2000, all very different from one another.  I did some Gothic-tinged electronica and darkwave with a band called Voiceless, experimental Drum ‘n’ Bass and Down Tempo with Aslan’s, and then some poppy Trip Hop and Drum ‘n’ Bass with Dreamzone 51.  I was more or less doing all the projects simultaneously, just grooving off whatever music the different musicians would send me.  Sometimes I’d use songs or poems that I had been saving for Lovespirals, but other times I’d just do something spontaneous based on their compositions, often using the working song title for lyrical inspiration.  It was a crazy, creative time!  I began to spread myself a little thin, so I told everyone that I had to back off and focus in on Lovespirals. 

The Violet Collective Interviews Anji Bee

Rik interviewed Anji Bee about her various musical endeavors for his blog. The following is just an excerpt from the full interview.


Rik: You divide your time between a few projects, Lovespirals and Delphinium being the most visible.  How does this affect the way you write?  Do you sit down with the idea of writing a Lovespirals song for example, or do you decide where a piece will be used after it’s written?

Well, I haven’t actually done any recording for Delphinium in a few years. Justin and I started doing other projects, and then he stopped making music.  He’s been saying he wants to get back into it, so perhaps we’ll collaborate again sometime in the future.

Since I’ve been in Lovespirals I’ve collaborated with a number of different musicians/musical projects, though — mostly during the end of 1999 to mid-2000. I was so excited to join Lovespirals that I went into a really creative period of songwriting, and my song journal was just overflowing.  Unfortunately, Ryan was having a lot of problems with his studio, so our work was put off for a while.  His computer died twice, causing him to lose a lot of precious data, and he’s had a lot of problems getting his software to work correctly ever since.  We haven’t actually gotten to do much work together yet, even though we’ve been together 2 years.

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